Sunday, August 26, 2012

Even in Australia...

First a tire goes flat this past summer, and it took two months to get it fixed. Then, the new tire went flat. Flash mobbing ants have taken up permanent residence in my house, random pools of water show up in the middle of my kitchen floor, I am struggling to time-manage my new teaching schedule and volleyball practice and well, life. I have had major spiritual battles with a critical spirit that won't stop. My phone is possessed by a legion of demons, I'm convinced. My laptop may have a virus attacking the Internet. Oh, there are problems with the Internet and they'll be out on Tuesday between 3:30-8:00 pm...I coach from 3-5 pm.  And if all that isn't enough, my other new tire is now going flat.
     When this journey began way back in January, God told me there would be battles up ahead. He told me that this wasn't going to be an easy journey, and I thought I was ready for it. There have been some hard fought battles in this journey and some very valuable lessons learned along the way, but they were nothing compared to the relentlessness of Satan's current onslaught. There have been times in this journey where I have wanted to quit for selfish reasons, namely I wasn't getting my way. However, when that third tire went flat yesterday, I told God I was done, I couldn't take this anymore. Every time I turn around it seems something is going wrong that desperately needs to be taken care of and I have no idea how. The battle with my critical spirit is completely frustrating because I cannot seem to gain any victory over it no matter how much I pray about it. Time management is non-existent and things are going undone that truly need to be done. I do not recall any time in this journey that the battle to maintain my relationship with God and keep this prayer in front of Him has been so difficult.
     When I was telling God for the fifth or sixth time yesterday that I was through, He reminded me of just how far we have come in this journey. He also reminded me of something He had taught me early on...wouldn't it be a shame to make it within a day, an hour, a minute of His answering this and quit. With the frequency of Tebow articles showing up on MSN and Satan's attacks seeming to directly correlate with them, I believe we may be very close to an answer and it would indeed be a  heart-breaking shame to quit with the answer so near. 
    Now, as I read back over the first paragraph, it's actually kind of humorous to read all the things going wrong, kind of reminds me of the children's book Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day, and yes, some days are like this, even in Australia, but at least I know without a doubt, that God is hearing our prayers and moving to answer them and this has Satan very concerned, thus the attacks. Let's just hope the answer comes in time to spare my apartment, laptop, car and phone. :)

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