The Vow

"Better is it that thou shouldest not vow, than that thou shouldest vow and not pay." Eccelesiastes 5:5

Nine months and six days ago God laid it upon my heart to begin praying that my sophomore homeroom class meet Tim Tebow. Out of that burden came a commitment to become a prayer warrior for Tebow. The commitment to pray for a meeting and for Tebow himself was relatively easy when I thought God was going to answer this request before school let out last May. It's not been such an easy commitment since then, in fact it has been an awful battle to just not quit since it often appeared to me that God was no longer interested.
     In many vain efforts, I tried to renew the passion and drive I had last winter and spring to see this done, but I never seemed quite able to sustain a full-on prayer campaign and I grew very frustrated. I couldn't figure out why God wasn't talking anymore or why He didn't really seem interested in answering anymore. Tonight, I laid everything aside and asked God point-blank if He still intended to answer this. His answer was yes. I asked Him then why I was having such trouble keeping up this prayer and why He didn't seem interested anymore. He answered that I was the one who had lost interest. Why should He work to answer something so huge if I really didn't want Him to? He pointed out that I was the one who went back on my vow to see this through to the end. The condition of my promise verse is to pray and ask, then He'll answer. If I'm not asking, He's under no obligation to answer.
     He went on to remind me that I had made a commitment to not only see this prayer through to fruition, but also to be a prayer warrior for Tebow. He brought the above verse from Eccelesiastes to mind. God would have rather I not made the commitment than not followed through. He didn't force this journey on me, I took it on willingly and as such He expects me to honor it. He told me I needed to renew my commitment in full to this journey and to UNINTIMIDATED.
     So that's what I did. I went back to some of the earliest blogs in this journey to remind myself just why I committed to this at all. Let me say, I am so thankful for Stephanie's suggestion to blog this. It was good to be reminded why I took this on. God is capable of doing something amazing in my life and the lives of my kids. Seeing so many of the reasons God had shown me why He wants this has definitely helped renew my commitment...I'd forgotten some of those. These reasons stirred up the passion and desire in me once again to see God work...an answer to a much repeated request. Reading about all the ways God has worked and shown Himself to be in this journey were amazing. It's good to be reminded.
     God has most definitely been in this from the beginning, no doubt. God still has a vested interest in answering this, but He is only interested as much as I am. Tonight, I am recommitting to my prayer and to UNINTIMIDATED...full-on. I will pay the vow I have vowed. If you have committed to pray, and like me have gone back on that commitment in anyway, I challenge you to join me and recommit and let's see how our amazing God is going to make this happen.