The Moments When You Feel Really Dumb...

I often find myself reluctant to share with people what I have been praying for. When I first shared with some friends that my students had written Tebow and asked him to visit, they light-heartedly scoffed at the idea and that it could  really happen and at this point I had already begun praying for him to visit. It makes me a little gun-shy to share MY request, when people didn't even think THEIRS was likely.
Not too long ago, as God was laying on my heart to share with my pastor both UNINTIMIDATED and this request, my fear was that he would not readily believe; it would, after all, be easy for anyone who knows me to think I am doing this simply because Tebow plays for the Broncos. God showed me that it would be difficult for some to believe something so monumental the first time they heard it...I did. Also, God has been talking to ME about this since January, not everyone else. God also impressed upon me that He didn't ask everyone else to have faith to see this through, He asked ME to have it, so it didn't really matter whether anyone else believed or not.
Now, I said God showed me these things, not that I actually believed these things, but today I was faced with the choice of what I was going to believe. I'd put off telling my pastor for a couple of weeks, then Sunday he talked about prayer and how God had been working on his heart about prayer. As I had prayed that God would do this very thing concerning my request, that was my signal from God it was time to quit stalling and do some talking. So what did I do? Wait til Wednesday before I finally decided I was being ridiculous and went to talk to him.
I began by asking for permission to leave chapel early to pray with my sophomores. I began to explain UNINTIMIDATED to him and he responds that he had read about it on Face Book. Here I was worried about how he'd react and he already knew, which made it allot easier to talk about the rest of the request. I felt really dumb as I left his office...God had already told me to not worry, just talk, so why did I get so anxious about sharing. I see the humor in this and I'm sure God does too. I bet He was sitting up in heaven saying, "See, silly, I told you not to worry, I have this under control." and boy am I thankful that He does.