Can't Think of A Catchy Title For This One...

I have avoided any serious prayer for this request since school has let out. Part of it has been I felt very letdown by God. Part of it also is, there is no longer a deadline by which God needs to work so the urgency has gone out of my prayers. Another part of it is I just don't feel the burning desire to see God answer this the way I did before school let out. The frustrating part of this is that I know God isn't finished with this prayer yet and I am being a petulant five year old who didn't get her way, but until today, I couldn't get passed it.
      In desperation last Wednesday, I asked God to show me something that would let me know He still planned on sending Tebow. That night in our teen services, the speaker made a statement to the effect that God will not tell you to do something then not help you accomplish it. I immediately thought of this request and the fact that this is something God asked me to do. If He told me to ask Him for the kids to meet Tebow, He's going to make it happen. You'd think I would have felt very confident that God was still going to perform this. You'd be wrong. I questioned whether that was meant for me. Then last Sunday, in our services, our pastor pointed out the verb 'shall' in a verse. He said that word was basically God's guarantee that what He says will happen, will happen. I immediately went to the verse I have claimed as God's promise to me and looked at the words and sure enough, shall is used in the verse. If we fulfill the first part, He will fulfill the second part. God still is going to answer this. Again, you'd think I'd be flying high on God's promise. You wouldn't be as wrong this time, but still, I doubted. Actually, it was more like I was afraid to believe again, He didn't answer the first time with this promise, why would He now?
     The way the Holy Spirit works is just weird sometimes. This morning I was reading in Romans. I was reading through chapters that explain God's grace and through chapters Paul wrote concerning the struggle between our flesh and the Spirit. As there really were no verses dealing with prayer, I can't really pinpoint a specific verse that led me to ask the Spirit to renew the driving desire to see this request answered. Somehow, though, God got through to me that He really isn't finished with this prayer and that those things He showed me in church were real.
     I did ask the Spirit to renew my desire to see this happen and asked Him for the ability to believe once again. For the first time in many days, I am excited once again to see God do this. Also for the first time in many days, I truly believe God is not done and that my kids will still get to meet Tebow.