Does God Roll His Eyes?

As teacher, I occasionally have a student who is an 'expert' on something and feels the need to 'educate' the rest of us on this topic. Nine times out of ten, this student is way off base and just likes to show off how smart he is. I struggle very hard not to roll my eyes at this child as he tells his tale. He is being presumptuous and really has no idea what he is talking about.
     Last night I suspect God was rolling His eyes at me. God's silence in this last few days has been very frustrating. Unfulfilled expectations of an answer each day have been extremely frustrating. Me, in all my spiritual wisdom, decided there must be something God was trying to teach me through His silence.  Sunday night we had a missionary speak. His initial statements dealt with faith. Right away I thought, "ha, ha! There is something God wants to teach me about faith." so I listened very intently, trying to figure out just what it was God was trying to tell me. After the sermon, I felt frustrated. I felt that I had missed what it was God was trying to say. When it came time to pray, I very diligently asked for the Holy Spirit's guidance as I prayed because, after all, God had something to say. It is amazing what the Holy Spirit 'teaches' you when you are determined that He has something to teach you whether He really does or not. The missionary spoke of grace being the thing on which we stand when times become difficult or confusing and not on faith. I had myself convinced that I had been praying wrong all along, that it wasn't faith, but grace that was going to answer this. He also said grace comes when we realize that God is the only One Who can work in a situation and that there is nothing I can do. So I convinced myself the Holy Spirit was telling me that ordering my arguments before Him was me trying to get my prayers answered rather than just trusting God. Once again, in my wisdom, I 'felt led' of the Spirit to stop praying back all the reasons why God should consider this request and just pray for Him to answer because of Who He is. Problem was, I still felt frustrated. I was having a hard time reconciling praying in faith and standing on grace. It really got me down yesterday, because I really felt I was missing what God was trying to tell me. I decided to 'reason this out' by writing a blog post, but nothing really was coming together the way I thought it should. Once again, I convinced myself there was some truth, just there below the surface and it was my spiritual duty to dig it out. As I began to pray last night, I begged and pleaded with God to reveal to me what it was He was trying to teach me...and nothing. I tried to 'be still and know ' but that wasn't working either. I gave up and went on to pray for Tebow. That time in my prayer was radically different. I very much felt the Spirit directing this part of my prayer. As I began to lift up my sophomores, there were things the Spirit led me to pray about for them. I dreaded spending time with Kris, because how was I going to pray? God had 'told' me not to lift up arguments anymore, to just pray, 'answer this God because of Who You are.' I confess, I was a little relieved when 8 o'clock came and she hadn't texted that she was coming up, but at 8:15 she did...and boy am I glad she did. Two, very simple statements she made God used to show me how dumb I had been. Kris said she had such a peace that God was going to answer this that it was hard to pray because this already had been answered. In her prayer she asked for assurance for me that this was going to happen.
     After she left, I thought 'why is it that others, who God didn't even challenge, were having an easier time believing than I was?' It was then that I realized God hadn't been trying to teach me anything at all. In my desperate attempts to make sense out of God's timing, I had convinced myself there was something in that sermon I needed, so I found what I 'needed'. That was why I was having such difficulty reconciling the sermon with what God has shown me, the Holy Spirit wasn't saying anything. It is also why I just couldn't quite grasp what it was He was trying to teach me or why I wasn't get any answers...there were none.
     After all this, I am fairly certain God does roll His eyes at us and shake His head. I was definitely one of those kids that drive me insane with their 'knowledge.' Fortunately for me, while God may roll His eyes at me, He still loves me and doesn't cringe when I talk to Him again and just maybe even laughs when I realize just how stupid and off-base I have been.